I don't like judging myself but I do believe I am a highly intellectual individual. (Think what you will based on my writing and my first blog). I never stop thinking about things and I believe that this is the reason i cant fall asleep. I literally can't "turn off" my mind. Every time i express my worries over my sleep deprivation to my mom she always gives me the same advice. "You just need to turn off your mind". Believe me mom. If i could I most certainly would! The worst nights though are when I'm working on a project. Such as tonight. I'm writing my first android app and i just can't go to bed knowing i have an error in my code or a bug. Especially when i think of the answer, or what i think is the answer to said bug. I have to try and fix that error. Take this night for example. I was up to probably about twelve. I had made good progress on my app, but there was still some bugs and things i haven't perfected. However I was starting to zone out and lose focus. So I decided to "go to sleep". After about 45 minutes of staring at the ceiling i have an epiphany about a solution to one of those bugs. After about 15 minutes of fighting myself whether to stay in bed or not I eventually jump out and turn on my computers.
So I start working again until about one thirty in the morning. Again feeling the lethargy and languor coming on i decide i would again "go to sleep". As you probably have guessed if you looked at the time stamp of this blog. I wasn't successful... So here i am now at two thirty in the morning, not going to sleep.
My sleep schedule is already fucked as it is. Literally I go to sleep at around two and wake up at about twelve every day. Now I'm in high school and on a normal day i have to get up at around 6. Luckily we are in winter break. Now anyone who is recently back to school or work after a long break knows that transitioning isn't easy.
So in conclusion i really need to find a way to fix this no sleep thing. I have to much to do in my day so i need all the sleep i can get. Maybe i have insomnia...? hmm idk I'll have to check into that. It would definitely take lots of convincing to get my parents to take me to a doctor over it. I know a girl who has insomnia. She has meds for it now and i guess that helps.
